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posted by Denise @ 11:20 PM 0 comments

My shoes are having a party, does your dress wanna come down and join them?

..And all I can taste is this moment..

Open house was good, got to meet Blake, and see a bunch of good peoples I've missed. Got some moneys too.

Last day at DQ is the 4th, man am I gonna miss it.

liquid bandaid smells like bananas kinda, and crap.

Kayley's tail is soo gonna be blue. eventually. My hair might be as well...

Singing balloons get scary when they start dying...I heard the ghetto version of 'celebrate good times, come on!'

Caramel exploding all over you/your face while working is funny, I'm soo glad it wasn't any hotter than it was.

Holly Brook CD = ♥

.night.

posted by Denise @ 1:26 AM 0 comments

Wonderwall

It makes it hard to deny something when it happens to you; and I'm so greatful that it did.

So I started out this summer with a bad outlook on life, for serious. I didn't care what happened or how, why, or with who. I figured, heck, it's my last summer here and I'm going to have fun. But as I thought this, I wasn't happy because I knew it wasn't right. Then again, I didn't care right?

Camp has really set me back on the track I needed to be on. It's easier to be me and be happy at the same time. It wasn't easy getting to this point, but I still got here. Now I just have to see how well I do. It's a challenge, or at least that's how I'm going to look at it as.

No but seriously, at camp I said how I was having a hard time remembering why I believed in the things I did, which was absolutely true. Now I have my reasons back, and everything that I couldn't remember no matter how hard I tried, they're back. ♥

Well, my open house is coming up, which is kinda exciting because I get to see peoples I haven't in a really long time and get together with peoples from camps which will help because I haven't even been back a week and some things have already started pushing my buttons.

-I said maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me; 'cause after all, you're my wonderwall-

Well kiddos, I'm thinking about going to bed or watching a movie or cleaning my room or something, so have a good night y'all.

<3

posted by Denise @ 11:35 PM 0 comments

I'll miss your smile, the way you taste..

So today was kind of hard for me.

N is moving to Wyoming, that's very far away and I might never get the chance to see him again. I didn't want to let go of him when hugging goodbye today...as soon as I got in my car to go home I already had tears falling.

He's always been there for me, no matter how much of a witch I've been to him. I think the only reason I really broke up with him was because this was coming, I didn't know it was, but somehow I still made it that way. If we were still together, this would have been even harder.
♥

I think weird things like that, like why things happened how, or when, and why.

I also have a bad habit of thinking worse case scenarios. I'll be driving and get this huge thing going in my head where there would be a collision and me getting in bad condition or something, then picture what would happen and how people would react.

I don't know if that is really a healthy thing to do or not, but I just can't help it. Just like biting my tongue.

Also for this summer, I think I've started caring less for myself already. I've been drinking more energy drinks, which is a definate no no for my sugar and I'm just not as chipper as I should be. I feel bad for it, because padre already feels horrible and I'm afraid to let them know how hard this is actually being on me although I think he already has a hint of it. I just don't want them to feel bad because then I'll feel bad for them feeling that way.

Something I need to work on, not caring about people so much. It honestly makes things so difficult sometimes.

I kicked the deck at the park today when I was jogging. I was mad because when I tried jogging I had a cramp in my side from eating a bit earlier.

I'm gonna miss Tae Kwon Do also...I haven't even mentioned to those guys how I won't be able to join them this Fall.

I seriously hope we get to hang our punching bag up somewhere at our new place. make me a excercise get-away room.

Speak to me- When all you gotta keep is strong, move along move along like I know you do; even when your hope is gone move along move along just to make it through, move along.

<3

posted by Denise @ 10:03 PM 0 comments

Somebody get me through this nightmare. -

Do you ever wonder if you'd be missed by anyone if you all of a sudden up and disappeared? I've wondered.

I wonder where I'll work at next.

I have bangs, o.m.gosh.

We have a fricken' huge dumpster in our driveway right now, and my brother's old room has no carpet.

What is it with birds flying into my car lately? like honestly.

I hope I get my own bathroom/shower in the new house. and a nice kitchen.

I'm going to miss DQ, and everyone that works there.

I'm going to miss quite a bit of people.

I want to write more.

I bought a new hairdryer today that's supposed to help with frizziness and I bought a purse and hairspray and gum.

I need to get ready and figure out what I want for camp.

Holly Brook CD came out today, but of course it's not anywhere around here, so I got to remember to look for it some other time.

My old neighbor just got hired at DQ, he was a major (enter mean words here). When he was under house arrest, everytime I'd walk by the house he'd howl and whistle and hold his dick as I'd walk by. All his friends would say something about me shaking my a** and say other crap like that. I don't know how working with him will go, but I won't be there much longer anyways so o well.

I need to cancel my classes at KCC, before I get billed. So much for a nice looking semester.

I'm probably going to wait until Fall of '07 before I start any college because I'll need to save more due to losing scholarships and needing a new job. I'll get to know the new neighborhood and stay a kid a bit longer anywho.

And I thought before moving my year was gonna be difficult.

"I'm not going to lie to you, moving sucks" at least you're not lying to me I guess.

It won't suck completely though, because I know people there and that will help soooo much. I know they'll all be there for me whenever I'll need them.

-ciao

posted by Denise @ 12:13 AM 1 comments