I'm Sorry I Can't Be Perfect
So I'm not everything you want me to be and I am not with you at all times,
that doesn't mean I hate you. So I was at the park today and it was kinda weird hanging out with n again like old times. I know something is still there between us, I am sure it will probably always be there; but I don't think we were meant to be together again. So I am not going to a live local band thing now on Friday. Jake invited me but mom doesn't wanna drive me there and, well yah...
I came soo close last night to doing it again. I had everything out,
but I didn't. I stopped myself. I told myself it wasn't worth it and if I am not good enough for her, that was
her problem.
So I decided it was not worth worrying over, and that if k liked me something woulda happened by now. I can find someone else to crush on.
It's really starting to get to me how this blog thing is not letting me post my entries. I don't want to have to make a new one or have to transfer the posts in here to the other one. I am too lazy. *kicks it*
I cut my hand at work today. It stung like a mo' fo' and it bled.
I should do some school.
I got a raise.
11:04pm May 31, 2005
Time After Time
So this thing isn't letting me post my blog recently. Stupid-head.
Okay so a lot of family is not doing so good. My grandpas cancer is back, my aunt has been getting treated for lupis the past few years and they found out the other day she doesn't have lupis,
she has MS. Then my uncle might need open heart surgery. I have a small enough family as it is and I don't know how my parents could take losing someone else so soon.
I get paid today. Then I might get to drive to Saginaw to get a cell phone.
Memorial day was
insane.
I gotta go to work. Please post blog!
11:09am May 31, 2005
World On Fire|Sarah McLachlan
Hearts are worn in these dark ages
You're not alone in these stories pages
The light has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And I'll try to hold it in
Yeah I'll try to hold it in
The world's on fire its more then I can handle
I'll tap into the water try and bring my share
Try to bring more, more then I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
I watch the heavens but I find no calling
Something I can do to change what's coming
Stay close to me while the sky's falling
I don't wanna be left alone don't wanna be alone
The world's on fire its more then I can handle
I'll tap into the water try and bring my share
Try to bring more, more then I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
Hearts break hearts mend love still hurts
Visions clash planes crash still there's talk of
saving souls still colds closing in on us
We part the veil on our killer sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take the less we become
The fortune of one man means less for some
The world's on fire its more then I can handle
I'll tap into the water try and bring my share
Try to bring more, more then I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
2:04pm May 27, 2005
God Bless The Broken Road...
My feet hurt soo bad.
Can I be any more obvious?? honestly..
So I worked from 11-4 and then went back at 6 and was supposed to leave at 8 but Kevin wanted me to stay and I have no willpower so I was there until 10. It annoys the heck out of me when people don't know what
closed means. People were still coming in at 9:30 when everything was cleaned and we were supposed to be out of there by 9.
So the family is going camping and I am staying at Regen's house because I guess I am not old enough to stay home alone. They are going to be gone until Monday.
I am soo tired
I am about to cry. Although I don't know if being tired has anything to do with it...
I need to stop letting him do this, it will just keep reminding me what I can't have.
Your head asplode.10:27pm May 26, 2005
Stupid Crap For Crap
I seriously think it's stupid that I have to go through all this work to get this to work. Anyways this is Part Two of my Failing Hope blogs. My other one quit letting me republish it after so many posts so I am transferring the ones I made that wouldn't let me publish into this one and will continue to post into this one unless the other one decides to work again.
-De
Here was the last post that it let me publish on FH1:
MmhmmI got new shoes, and I didn't have to pay for them :)I made 95 Buster Bars at work today for Stacie to dip in the afternoon. I will probably have to make 95 more tomorrow.
I helped Regen paint her new room last weekend and that was fun. Especially rocking out to Phantom of The Opera CD.
I don't have much to really say I just wanted to post something today. Bought Relient K CD.
I work 4 days this week and then I work next Monday, all day next Monday X.x
Anyways mum wants the compy so I gotta go.
Love yous!
-De
9:02pm May 23, 2005
