Failing Hope II

If there's one thing I hope I showed you...

It's kind of crazy how my brain always runs in overdrive at night. It will be completely dead of thinking all day but as soon as all is quiet it will start buzzing and reflect on the days events and make me actually think. I wish I could make it do this in the day, then I wouldn't be such a boring person to talk to at times..heh ^_^;

Like tonight, I thought about how work went and how I don't know how I'll be able to put in a one/two weeks notice for Stevie D's to begin work at DQ again because they are really nice to me at Stevie's, once you get past their evil making-fun-ness. The thing is I don't think I can honestly pull off two jobs this summer. I need time for fun before I end up going to college and 'growing up'. There is so much I want to do this summer that if I have two jobs there is no way it's gonna happen. I mean, I need the money and everything so I can actually afford college, but I also need a life so I don't become some poor emo college kid. That can happen when I'm older.

Another thing I've been thinking about is how life has been so, different. Thinking about friends, how they act with certain situations. Thinking about family, how they're not making fun of my awesome guy. Thinking about Brenton, about how wonderful he's been to me so far. Thinking about my dog, how rotten she's been lately. Thinking about how I need to go to the library and visit/find some books.

There are a lot of the word 'thinking' in that paragraph^.

There are a lot more things I could actually add to that paragraph above, but I can only let out so many of my secrets ;-)

I still have no idea what St. Valentino Baby is named (my cousins baby that was born on the 14th).

Giraffes? Giraffes!

Have fun on your vacation SaR, you deserve it :-) I love you.

Well kiddos, it's off to bed for me. I'm not even supposed to be on the compy at this hour in the first place.

<3

posted by Denise @ 12:37 AM