Failing Hope II

See I don't know if i've ever been good enough...

So I have a doctors appointment tomorrow for what's been going on with my eating sugar. Last night I had another spell type deal; didn't throw up but I felt like I was gonna. I went to bed around 1am and woke up about 3:45ish and was immediatly awake and cold and shaky and felt horrible and I needed to eat. I got down half a small cup of some blue punch stuff in the fridge due to no milk being there. I opened a thing of pudding which I didn't eat any of it because I didn't want to see what that looks like coming back up. So I sat in the bathroom and I couldn't get anymore juice down either but what I did get down finally helped enough for me to get a hair-tie and my mom. She got me bread and butter and she was gonna check my blood sugar level but the machines battery died; we didn't find that out until after my finger was bleeding of course. it took me at least 20 minutes to eat the one slice of bread but after I finally finished it I felt better and was able to go back to sleep.

Earlier that night:
I was on the compy and it was getting close to midnight when mom comes out to feed the cats saying they were banging on the door over and over and dad was right behind her with a flashlight which scared the puppy and made her bark loudly like mad. It wasn't pretty. Later dad came out and appologized as I was filling the dishwasher and then mom came out when I was heading to my room and appologized and gave a reason to the madness, kinda. So the good news is we still get to keep my cat.

Dyed my hair again! It's red but not as bright as the other red I tryed a few months back. I like it and am happy with the results.

O yah, EEK! I found a flea on puppy a little while ago and it was not cool at all. My bedsheets are now getting washed as we speak and we are hoping it was just that one and that there will be no more.

Apparently Nick wants to call and talk to me but he doesn't know wether he should or not and he is confused or something. Regen told him that he should call, if he had something to say.

My friend Ike is supposed to call when he has a free night and we are supposed to watch House Of Wax together, looks good. Josh A wants me to give him a call sometime so we can go partying together and Regen's ex wants me to go to a fancy dance with him. Jash called and the phone got passed to some of his friends and when it got back to Jash he was like 'did he ask you if we were going out? I thought he said that...' and I said I don't believe he said that and sighed inside my head. At work last Saturday Kevin scared the crap outta me by coming behind me and snorting in my ear. I jumped and some words slipped out of my mouth as I chased him to the drive-thru and knocked him into the wall. Later he came behind me and made a stick hit my a** and that made me jump yet again and I gave him a mean look and continued with my job. After Josh at work said he hated me and I was weird he was really nice and actually talked to me and I think was hitting on me at points.
So my question is, why are guys being sooo insane lately?!?!?
I'm not any different, I didn't get taller, my boobs didn't grow (not much), is it that easy to tell i'm single again??? crazyness.

I also am thinking of going to the RC Cafe to see if they are hiring, I don't know if I can stay home all winter...

Well I believe I posted enough for today, thought I'd just fill ya in on what has been going on recently. Plus I just wanted to put this stuff somewhere. Ciao!

<3

posted by Denise @ 6:35 PM