Failing Hope II

Wow.

That was awesome.

We got home around 2am last night and I went through my camp log a little bit and then went to bed. I got up around noonish today and found out Dan & Mom are at church. Anyways, now to tell you about it.

We got there last Saturday and I was a nervous wreck! Kyle came out and showed us where to go and I then found out I was rooming with Lauren and Taylor. I get everything in the room and continue to walk around with Lauren as she showed me around. Anyways, I tried to keep cheery and all and by that night there was a ton of campers. The next day I got to know some people more and ended up hanging out with at first the two smallest campers because I figured I could handle there hyper-annoying-wangsterness. I did alright but when they poked me it did get annoying, mainly just the one that looked like a chipmunk poked me. The names were Anthony (the chipmunk) and Devonte AKA Von. I ended up being a joke to some of the peoples because I was always around guys and they thought it hilarious. It's not my fault they kept tackling me when I tried playing catch with a football! After the second campfire we had our devotions in our room with the room nextdoor and I thought I felt something there but it quickly went away. As the week went on I kept getting more and more upset because nothing was happening like I needed it to.

Canoe trip.
I ended up being in a canoe with Aaron and Lauren and it was tons of fun most of it but I didn't put suntan lotion on my legs so my knees got burnt and my left shoulder. It was nice to just relax and look at the rocks and the water. Also for the last mile or so I ended up being in Taylor's canoe and that was nice because we just talked the whole time.

Initiation.
I believe it was Wednesday night? Anyways we all had to go in the basement and they were saying we would be blindfolded and I started to freak inside. I had blindfolds. I NEED to know where I am going at all times. Anyways I was victim 9 out of like 13 so at my turn I was shaking. Taylor and it was either Charity or Leah took my hands and we ran to the campfire where the hugga-bugga-boo tribe initiation began. I knew my butt would end up wet due to the not happy camper Dan last year about it. I kept putting my hands on the seat before sitting down and so it took forever before I got the wet bottom. Mucho humiliation in-between.

Talent night.
They wanted everyone to participate so I chose a small skit that involved only one person, me. Half the people didn't get it but the ones that did laughed. When it got into the more serious part I had a tear come to my eyes. The singing was soo beautiful and the testimonials touched my heart. That night at campfire I was pumped and ready for something great to happen; but nothing did. I was so sad and I wondered what it was I must have done wrong and so I sat in the dark by myself on the merry-go-round until I didn't hear anyone anymore and figured it was time to go to the room.

Friday night.
That night at campfire everyone was just saying how much of a wonderful experience they had and how the spirit was there and everything and I just felt horrible; but in the past few months I have found it easier to hide my tears from people. At the end Kyle came up to me and asked if I was okay. I replied with I guess so? (insert GIR voice<) and he looked at me and asked if I was sure and I said I dunno and just broke into tears and that was one of the longest hugs I had had all camp and for quite awhile before that. Then Taylor hugged me and said how I helped her out that one day and got a tear in my eye again.

Yesterday morning.
I went to the swings and was just swinging slightly when Kyle came outta the guys side of the motel/dorm/rooming area and walked over and I was like 'o gosh he's gonna wanna talk about last night' but I didn't wanna move because I knew it wouldn't do much. So we talked and I told him what was going on without crying and afterwards he said he didn't think he helped but he did and we had one class that day before lunch and before everyone was gonna start leaving. It was beautiful and amazing. I actually stood up during the testimonial part and said a short something or other and I felt it stronger than the rest of the camp and that made it all worth while.

The trip home.
I rode most of the way in the Burnard's camper with Kyle, Lauren, Brent, Taylor, & Luke. It was much fun and I actually did decent in Euckre! But we made it home safe and sound and now I am on hear typing something ridiculously long and I really hope it posts. There was much fun inbetween all of what I wrote including the crazy games and crazy olympics. If you wanna know more I have e-mail and a cell lol. I love you all and missed you all tremendously!

<3
-De

posted by Denise @ 2:51 PM